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Friday, March 19, 2010

same old title..

nothing.
just wan to tell u..
aku rs isi blog aku sm jak ulang2..ahahah.
psal choices.choices.choices.
xda benda lainka??
aku pun boring..ahaha
tggula abis matriks.
when i'm struck wif severe boredomisation(adaka dlm kamus ni ah...*thinking*)
whtsoeverla..
bubye for now..
i'll write again later..
whenever i hav tym.


WALLAHUALAM.May ALLAH bless.

lots&lots of thinking

not to complain.
not to babble around for nothing.
but the more n more days hav past,
i've been thinking a lot.
way lot.
susah kn melangkah ke alam dewasa ni.
everything we do is a choice.
wht's our ambition
our life path.
 no exception
 lots of things to think.
u knoe..
i'm planning going to Kursk.
but then,there r times when i thought tht
"is dis the rite choice for me?"
ni ka tmpt yg terbek?
deih.payah2.
i've isikharah oredy bout this.
then,dunno.
no sign yet.
yeah i knoe..
my mum blik2 advice me.
"Farah,dun think about tht first.the important thing,u focus on ur studies now"

tht's wht my mum always say to me.
but mum...
truly deeply..i can't stop thinking bout it..
it's my future.
n whtever my choice i'm gonna make will affect myself,my future.
O ALLAH.guide me in everything I do.
hopefully anything tht i do will giv benefits in ISLAM.
dun let me take a wrong step.

tu baru Kursk.
blum lg benda lain.
kawen?(ahahah..ni yg pling mahal ni.)
makan?(wht...mkn pun kena pikir jgk.hehe)
jem**h?(ni yg pling menstresskn.)
time managemant?etc.
argh!too many choices to make.but only choose one.n yg kna choose ni is ME.sumtyms i become fed up.i feel like mcm yg mau ikut flow jak ni..
mungkin ni satu ujian kn for me..
UJIAN ADALAH TARBIYAH.
1 way to improve ourself.to muhasabah diri blik.get to ur own senses.my senses.

thinking out the box???ada kaitan ka tu dgn pilihan yg bakal diambil..ahahah..xda2.



uits.nda lm jua ni PSPm kn tiba..
huhu..
hope cn answer the best.

ba2.kla2..sapu merapu da ni.
stop.fullstop.end it here jakla.


WALLAHUALAM.May ALLAH bless.

Friday, March 12, 2010

sesungguhnya hati2 kita..ALLAH yang pegang..

now..
it's MARch already..
not long enough i'm gonna leave matriks..
lots of feelings combination..
sad ada..
happy pun ada..
well...besala kan..
that's wht we call life..
this past few weeks..
i'm very3x stress ba..
byk kekangan masa.too much i think.
wif my academics..
wif keja2 ISLAM lg..
yeah true.
i knoe..
tht's the first thing i learn when i enter matriks.
kerja2 ISLAM tu bknnya senang pun
there r times i feel like giving up..
haih...sandi gla ni..
mcm last week..
da la aku nda bljr 1 whole day..
trus da meeting lg..
smpai jm 1 am..
i feel like dying..
sampaikn before i walk tu
befikir lg mau escape ba..
tp kakiku tetap jgk melangkah pg surau..pg meeting..huhuhu//
adeih..
then..
I learn sumthing new..I realise tht
sesungguhnya hati kita ALLAH yg pegang...
Ya ALLAH...
forgive me for forgetting u..
forgive me for thinking yg keja2 ISLAM ni membebankan..
forgive me for being tired dlm menyebarkan agamaMU..
ya rabb..
sesungguhnya aku cuma manusia yg lemah..
there r tyms when i felt the ups n downs truly..
but then I remembered 1 verse in the Quran

wahai org2 yang beriman,sekiranya kmu menolong agama ALLAH,nescaya ALLAH akan menolong kamu dan mengukuhkan kedudukan kmu(Surah Muhammad:ayat 7)

then,I realise,penentu kejayaan bukan dengan kita belajar berabis tu..
HE'S the one that  chose whether we can be succes or not.DIA ada perancangan yg lbh baik utk kita..
Now I became stronger..INSYA-ALLAH..
Hope tht ALLAH would always hold my heart..
n be with me..
Sesunggunhnya ALLAH x rugi sdkitpun jika kita jauh daripadaNYA..
Kita la manusia pling rugi jika membelakangkan ALLAH..kerana ALLAH la yg MAHA KUASA
takbir!takbir!takbir!

p/s:i dunno y but this past few days..my heart mkin kuat mengatakan mau pg KURSK STATE MEDICAL UNI...hope tht's the best way for me..
Ya ALLAH kuatkn semangat ku untuk berjihad d jalanMU.
sekiranya aku mati,biarla mati sbg para SYUHADA.
amin..


Wallahualam.May ALLAH bless.